omg im updating. haha. well anyways. not much in my life. lost my job. i'm working for a temp agency at waxdale. i dont even know what to say. haha. im moving down the hall to a smaller apartment in a few weeks. will definatly have to have people over when we move.

Current Mood: tired

so ok its amazing ive decided to update but its only to inform people that i moved out of my paretns house and that is one reason i am never online anymore. if u want my address call me and i'll give it to u. if u dont have my phone number email me and i'll get it to u. alinykolebass@hotmail.com. but put something in the subject like hey ashley i need your number.

ok so justin tells me i need to update more often. so i will update about yesterday.
i got up and went to work at 9 and worked until 3. it was ok. i dont like stocking party. it frustrates me. after work i came home and started going thru my stuff in the attic. we're having a rummage sale this weekend so its my chance to make some money. then Brittany came over and she helped me go thru stuff a little. then we went to get dinner with Ashliegh and Heather. They are so cute together. Then after dinner we went and saw cars and then went and picked up brian and justin and went over my krystal. she's moving to stevens point today so we wished her off. i guess thats all i have to say about yesterday. today i am havign lunch with krys and then working 2-close. so yeah thats all.

ok so i knwo i havent updated in a long ass time. ive been busy. so busy that i havent been online much and i havent watched days in like 2 or 3 weeks. so lets see whats happened in the life of me since my last update.
i went to milwaukee pride and met some kool people that now i see almost every day. i saw DHT at pride and it was awesome. i cant wait till pride next year now. and hopefully i can make it to chicago pride next year since i had no choice but to work on it this year plus it was my mom and brittany's birthday that day.
on their birthday me, mom,dad,adam and brittany went to the cheese cake factory for dinner. it was really good. after dinner we came back to my house my mom opened gifts and then we left. cant remember what we did but i know britt and i left.
i house sat for my grandma for 5 days. had fun in a big tub with jets filled with bubbles. most fun ive had in that sense. haha.
last night krys and i went to summer fest and saw mary j blige (6th row center seats). yes krys made it! yay. haha. it was so fun. she is amazing in concert and to spend that time with krys made it even more amazing. she had a blast which made me feel great. hopefully she will uplaod pics soon and i can post a few.
and now today i am going to a cookout at my uncles at 2 and then go up to summerfest again and see kenny chesney. second row center! yay baby!

Current Music: leanna rimes- something's gotta give

well Alex told me i needed to update so i guess i will.
not much is going on in my life. i'm workign alot. the wedding is in less than 2 wks. not lookign forward to it. i know i will be a mess. i'm still trying to talk my stitch into going with me but i dunno. i have a feeling des will be my date. ill find out soon hopefully. other than that i've just been kinda down lately. u all prolly know the reason.
krys made me a bracelet and an anklet while she was in texas. here are pics of them. ( clickage )
i didnt notice until yesterday that the beads are purple blue and pink the colors for being bisexual! yay. haha.
i guess thats it for now. comment!

yesterday was like one of the best days i have had in a long ass time. we had a birthday party for me. most of my family was here. Grandma carol and grandpa neal, great grandpa, (Great grandma in spirit), My dads parents, aunt diana,(uncle dave in spirit), uncle donny and sandy, marilyn, blanca, beau, jashper and chris, chris larsen, Brian and Jess L., Kaitlyn and Jacoby, Danielle and Katie. I got $95.00 which is kool. Kaitlyn got me some awesome shirts and Dani got me some nice body butter. Over all it was enjoyable. I had too many shots of hot sex. i lost count. but damn was i feeling it. i think i can finally saying i was drunk! woot woot. I surprisingly dont have a hangover today. im a little tired but i didnt go to bed until after 1 am. i also got soemthing that i have been waiting for for awhile but im not gonna get into that. im happy! can u believe it i am actually happy! yay!

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: shannon curfman

1. time: 9:46 pm

Ashley

3. Nickname (if any): Ali, Ash, Sweetness, and krys alled me lilo the other day.

4. If you were a skittle what color would you be?: purple

6. Zodiac: pisces

7. Hair color: reddish brown

8. Eye color: blue

9. Height: 5'2 1/2

10. Favorite Color(s): pink and black

11. Glasses, contacts or neither: glasses

12. Braces?: nope

13. Piercing/tattoos?: 4 piercings in my eyes and one in my navel

14. Birth Place: Racine

15. Area code: 262

16. Sibling(s) name(s): Adam

******HAVE YOU EVER******


17. Cut your own hair?: a little

18. Did something in the past month that you regret?: prolly

19. Have u ever met someone u were not supposed to?: i dunno

20. Kissed someone who isn't ur b/f g/f?: yup

21. Skipped school?:yeah

22. Bungee jumped?: nope never want to either

23. Kissed someone of the same sex not related to you?: yes

24. Kiss more than two people in one day?: i dont think so

27. TP'd someone's house?: nope

28. Won something?: yes

29. Asked someone out?: yes

30. Been rejected?: yeah

31. Been to a funeral?: yes

32. Used a lighter?: yes

33. Been on stage?: yes

******FAVORITE*****


35. Food: italian

36. Ice cream flavor: cookie dough or cake batter

38. School subject(s): history

39. Breakfast cereal: fruity pebbles or rasin bran crunch

40. Number(s): 5

41. Book(s): currently reading "annies baby" and "the best of leasbian erotica 2006"

42. Movie(s): 10 Things I Hate About You and cruel intentions

45. State?: texas

46. Place?: dunno

47. Sport to watch on TV: none i dont liek sports

48. Sport to play: volleyball or floor hockey or soccer

49. Bands/musician: hanson and shannon curfman

50. Letter(s): huh?

51. Fast food restaurant/place: fazolis or culvers

52. Cartoon Character: dunno

53. Holiday: christmas or easter bc the whole family is together

54. Name for a son: Alyxander Steven

55. Name for a daughter: Shianne Alyxandra

******DO U PREFER******


56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: both equally

58. Long relationships or one night stands?: long term relationships

59. Dogs or cats?: cats

60. Scary movies or comedies?: comedies

61. Silver or gold?: silver

62 Croutons or bacon bits?: croutons

******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******


64. Retards: Adam

65. School:CNA

66. Grass: fresh

67. Cow: my KK

68. Canada: Niarga Falls

69. Mouse: Chevy

70. Hands: Dry

******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******


71. Watched a movie?: yeah

72. Talked on the phone?: yes

73. Cried?: yes

74. Threw up?: no

75. Drank a glass of water?: yeah

76. Talked to a person of the opposite sex?: yes

77. Read a book or magazine?: no

78. Watched TV?: yes

80. Taken a shower?: yes

81. Taken a picture?: yes

82. Listened to music?: yes

83. Kissed someone? no

85. Wondered what the hell happened to 84?: didnt notice

*****BELIEVE IN....******


86. Heaven?: at times

88. Aliens?: no

89. Fun for the entire family?: ocationally

90. Freedom of speech?: within limits

91. Love?: yes

92. Magic?: no

*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******


93. Last movie you saw in theatres?: i dotn even know its been so long.

94. Are you listening to music right now?: no

95. What clothes are you wearing right now?: my skull pj pants with a white beater and my robe

96. do u like your middle name?: its the same as my aunts so yeah i do.

97. What is the best thing since sliced bread?: cake batter icecream!

98. What color is your backpack?: well my old one was a denim messanger bad from the gap

99. Who's your dad?: a guy that lives in my garage and rarely ever is in the house. lol

100. what time is it?:10:00pm

Bi/Slightly Gay You scored -7 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight)

For the most part, you are bisexual. You have a slight preference for the same gender, but either gender would suit you. If you are sexually inexperienced, it is possible that this will change after you do some experimenting.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 24% on Orientation

Link: The Sexuality Spectrum Test written by tall_man_54 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

so i thought with time that this emptiness would start to go away but its still here. its like there is a hole inside of me that wants to be filled, is yearning to be filled, but only wants to by one, the one that dont want to. usually listening to music brings me up and it has a little but then i go back down. some of my favorite songs remind me. now i cant listen to music 24/7. i break down everytime i am in the shower. almost every time i would take a shower i would get a call from that person. so now even taking a shower reminds me. but it is wierd bc when im in the shower and i break down it is harder and more painful than when im just sitting in my room. ive had thos "visions" again. its those horrible things that bring me down even more. i dotn knwo why i get them but i do and it scares me. this seems to be a constant thing over the past 4 months. "i cant do this with you" one day and then a week later "i miss you". I miss you too but its a differnt kind of miss you than you feel. i gotta stop.
anyways startign tomorrow krystle is transfered to my store. dont know how that is gonna work out. im nto sure if i liek it or not yet. it will be beneficial to the store but probabaly not to the employees. so we'll have to wait it out and see.
also i found out that mr chris lubrano is in prison and has been for almost a year. dan said he would try to get an address for me to write to him at.
but i guess that i is besides i find most of my friends to be pretty shitty to me. no one asks me if i wanna do anything and when i ask them to do something they back out or say they will and never do. liek today. supossed to go shopping. store closes at 6 and it is 4:50 and i still havent heard from the person. so thank u sooooooooo much for treating me like i mean something to u.
ok im done. goodybye.

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